Really. I need to stop going MIA on you guys. I am so sorry that I have been away for a while. Things kinda got dark for a while after I moved into my apartment. My depression really had an effect on me, as well as work issues.
First off, work.......God. It is becoming a nightmare. So, the AGM who replaced my old AGM---quit. Yep. Quit with no notice. He texted our corporate bosses saying that he quit. The dude barely made it over 30 days.
So, needless to say----the work has now been piled onto me again. I am doing the billing, inventory, the front desk schedule, and as well as doing some overtime every week because we are slammed. Of course, summer time is here----and families/sports teams are traveling. On top of that, the gas and oil industry picked up so now we are even more filled than what we were before.
My depression came back and really hit me a couple of weeks ago. Over the past month, I was feeling some discomfort in my body. I was showing all the symptoms of a UTI infection. I went to Med Express, they told me the culture and test came back negative. I then looked up some things online, and I started to panic. Next, I went to my gynecologist because of the symptoms that I was having. He basically said nothing was wrong with me and to go to the dermatologist. So that was a no go. I finally got the courage to go to my PCP about the issue. From there, things went down to the toilet. When I did a urine sample, I was spilling sugar into my urine (which shouldn't happen at all). I told her I was always to tell the doctors that I have PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), and it was because of that. She told me that even when I did spill urine in the past, that this time was significantly higher than before. They took a blood sugar test, and it was positive for the one thing I dreaded on having. My sugar was over 200.....I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. It does run within my family, so it was inevitable that I was going to get it. There is a difference between type 1 and type 2. Type 1 is when you are insulin dependent, and type 2 is when it can be controlled with a pill. Since I am type 2, I can control it with the pill. I have to take it 2x a day currently because I have really high sugar that needs to be lowered. I also have to test my sugar 3x a day with my glucose meter. It sucks. I hate this so much. My depression kicked in hard because my sugar is not lowering. I am changing my diet, I am exercising, I am moving around....and nothing. I am not losing weight like I should be, nor my sugar is lowering. I already developed diabetic neuropathy. Diabetic neuropathy is nerve damage that has been done to the nerves that is caused by high blood sugar over an extended period of time. I am having numbness in some of my finger tips, and a lot of pain in my foot and part of my legs. This, however, can't be cured or won't go away....but I can control the pain with creams. I am going to call the doctor on Monday and see if I can get a script for that.
Then over top of all this....I find out that not only does my dad have a new girlfriend already-----but so does my mom. I think both parents are moving too fast too soon. Their divorce hasn't been even through the court system yet, and they have new toys. *rolls eyes* Both of the parents want me to get to know their new beau/girl, but I feel it is too soon. Just a little over 3 months ago is when I found out that they were getting a divorce. I still am some what in shock because my whole life has too many changes for me to actually process them. I am not ready to get to know these people, frankly not for a long time.
It seems like that every time I am trying to get better, I keep getting knocked down again. I am tired of being knocked down. I am tired of having health problems all the time. For once, I would just like to be normal. As normal as can be.
I am going to try to be more active on here. Maybe this can be a restart into finding something that I can relay my feelings to.